today hen sian, im missing her badly, always feeling out of breathe, i really hope that she is by my side, those words you once said, sounded it my mind n my heart, i didn't noe wad to believe in bt my heart, i really ai ni, you once said you will always love me n i really loved you, there was times that were my fault, i noe, bt i didn't do that on purpose, it was my mistake, i am trying all i can to hold you, your shell n your soul. i really was afraid to lose you, de times without you was torturing to me, i became quiet again because my heart was speaking, those sweet memories i brought to you n those sour n unbearable pain i gave you was my mistake, pls gal, i dun wan to end it, i was to carry on, dun stay away from me, you may have me fan, i duno, its really because you are nt giving me a chance, yourself a chances, i had my mind thinking of you my heart missing of you, you maybe having fun nw, i duno. i only wan to love you like before, juz like last time, we promised each other to make it everlasting bt your choosing to forget it, i cnt forget you! you can hurt me as much as you wan, i only wan you back like last time, you noe hw much i love you, you may think that it is over, bt juz think, i still love you! why dun you give me de chance to make you happy again, we can start afresh, juz you n me, rebuild de third life.

why didn't you wan to give me de chance? you wouldn't reply me, ans my call, tok on phone, chat on msn n even juz meeting, you rejected me, do you noe hw important you are to me? do you noe hw important tis relationship is to me? i really wan to loved you n take care of you bt you wouldn't wan, i always thought your love for me was true, you noe is true, so gal, juz tis last time! we will start afresh, i will nt hurt you, nv again! i only wish you could hold my hand like before n stay by my side time to time, rmb at that playground? we had our memories there, de seat, that place.

everyone who noes me knew that i was happy after being wif you, bt tis few days, i was in daze, i duno wad i shall do, dun tell me to give up, i spend lots of time alone thinking wad to do to let you come back to my side, you said i was de one that made alvina seriously in love, pls be by my side, dun walk alone nor with others, walk wif me, i will nt be shadow, i will be your pillow, your everything, i noe when you read tis, you may find it fan gan, im sorry, coz im emo, wad i wrote was from my heart, i love you! im all alone, dun leave me here, i dun wan anyone else bt you, sorry! sorry i once said those words, they were hurting, i will nv ever say them again.

that nite at playground, i didn't really wan you to go, i only wanted to noe whether you will stay, you walk away, i saw you walk step by step, i pick my phone bt it was off, i chase after you, hold you by your hand, we hugged n start crying, i told you: ke yi bu yao li kai wo mah? wo bu yao ni zou. you tok that de problem will happen again, i hugged you tight! most tight! i ask again, you told me de same thing, i cried n did stupid things, i told you "if after all tis you wan go jiu go ba"
my mistake! i should juz hold on to you, bt you left me there to cry, i chase again, i thought you have gone, i took de lift up n i saw you there, i called you bt den i realise it was off, i saw you board de bus. i didn't go home, i went down n found a seat by de long gan, i stared into de sky, a sudden lost of direction, you show me de way bt that nite, that way you showed has blured. i spent an hour there thinking why has it gone tis way. i only ask for tis last chance, to be wif me like hw we had been, de loving couple. i didn't meant to hurt you that way, IM SORRY! there was tis notebook n inside was de dat that i had wrote down long ago, i counted 100days 200days 300days 400days n every month de 22. i nt showing hw fan ren i am bt hw much i loved you.

i will always be waiting, nv to give up, even after 22, coz i really put my whole heart on you! i believe that de day will come. if you can promise that you will be back to me, i will give you sumtime to relax, if you that promise really will come true coz im scared that you would run away wif another guy wif my heart. i really wan it back!

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