today hen tired, ytd slept at 3am, could nt sleep well, 5+ kana woke up, went back to sleep, 8.30 wake up again, acturlly was at my gan daddy[real de] house, bathe, n go out, waited bus 17 wif gan kor[real de] all real de, i dun anyhw accept de ok, took bus there, to CGH. was bit more relax nw coz my gan dad nw okok le, went for two OP to take out blood clot, heard gt 150ml in de brain there, den nw third scan, he nw gt reaction bt eye still cnt open, his small part of skull gone, coz of OP. stay there till 7pm, went back to pasir ris to eat dinner, wasted alot of food coz i nt wei kou. ate like 1/5 of rice in plate, tired tired, her phone was off, didn;t noe where she go, didn't noe whether gone anything happen to her nt, msg my gal, my most loved gal bt she till nw, haven reply, im really afraid to lose you.
why gal? dun run away from my love, i really love you! why? i called you bt you nv ans, i really duno hw i should do when you run away from me. you dun even wan to give me juz that one chance? im so tired bt i will go on, my heart is hurting alot bt i will continue, until de day you are truely happy, i duno hw you wan treat me bt i nw i wan treat you good!
i really wish that wad i have said, wad i have done n wrote will melt your heart, you noe i will nt lie to you, i was always honest to you coz i love you, i dun blame that you lie to me, coz i really dun wan to lose you, seeing you taking my pic down, it hurts bt i really dun wan to end. i dun wan anything that i told you to happen, i wanted you, you was mine i was yours, i dun wan to see you kissing other guy coz i will really kana ta han de, i told you before, i gt weak heart, every breathe, my heart will ache, every couple i see, my heart will ache, every memories will make me heart pain coz im losing you like losing myself, i will lose my way, i dun rmb de way back.
hw can i fall in love wif another gal? [sorry ***** if you see tis] it is like asking him to fall in love wif another gal, each time i msg you, each time i wait, during de time i wait, i will think of those memories n when i think of hw you are leaving me, my heart will beat very fast, tis whole week, my energy is fading, i dun feel so high anymore, i cnt get active anymore, i will smile at de mirror laugh at myself for nth, let me be very honest to everyone, i speaking truth to all readers, no hiding, gal, i really dun wan to lose you, i wan to spend time wif you, im scare that you spend time wif your gans, im scare that i dun even get to love you in your face by 22, im scare you will fall for him as day passes, i afraid you would kiss him n more, im afraid that you will forget bout 221107, i dislike you to run away from me coz i wan you. i wan it back like before, i wan you to give all your time to me before 22, i cnt even try my best when i dun even you where you go, i promised you if you give me de time n i fail, i will walk off bt tis relationship behind, juz that i may be mia till i can fan kai my heart, if nt i will hiding at corners looking at you, letting you walk juz wif de shadows of me. im very tired n stress, so people, dun poke me, i dun have strength to turn to you n ask you to leave me alone.
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