monday-
woke up n went to meet shawn, how i wish i can slp longer forever, shawn was late again, played basketball den went to sch, who noes hw much hurt n pain i have to endure, who noes which laughter is fake, hw i wish i duno anything, hw i wish i was nt born saying byes to my friends, everyone around me bt i cnt.
my parent tok bout me, im nt a pai kia n i dun wish to be one, i noe wad type of life you have been through, i hope i can study well too. Bt i need time, i duno wad i have to do. You people earn money n am so alone, bt nvm, becoz you have a responsibility to earn money,
mr lee, i m lost n you knew it too, you ask me to think about it n wad else can i do,
mr ong, i wan to study bt i feel like quitting sch, i dun wan 6years, you asked me wad i have been doing, it does nt have to do wif my friends, its juz me...i noe i noe, i have juz pretended that i learn n when i get home, i only wan to take a rest, i cnt think anymore, do you noe hw tired i am.
mr sim, you have tok to me today, bms bms bms, i dun care, bt im glad you tok to me, atleast you said nvm de uniform first, you ask me to go for cca first, i will try, thx for nt being rude to me.
den walk home alone, after de mini mart, i looked at de view of de buildings, i was thinking whether would my dreams come true, working in city n live well in life in name or will i fall straight down, slping whole day n nv gets up,
ah lun, you have ur own life bt im happy to have you as my cousin, you better xue guai n dun find ppl trouble, i rmb de days we cried together, very shameful lor, haha,
chris n shawn lee, i duno whether you will read tis nt, i thx you for encouragement, you have been encouraging me since sec 2 bt i afraid to tell you i scared of letting you down,
alvina, haiz, it nt i hated you like siao, i can give you a chance bt it also means giving myself a chance, when feelings are gone, its hard to find them back, i taking on a relationship which im nt ready for, you almost make me wan to find a replacement over you.
im fucking stress, i dun go for cutting nor can i have better ways, you ppl noe that, i dun have much time for to decide n tis feeling suxs, am i awake when i can think of all of tis or am i still slping?
maybe i should stop caring my friends, dun care hw they feel n im trying to, wan join gang jiu play big one, play older de, dun becoz same class den fun, wan bu qi den dun play, dun tell me "urs cnt sleep, wan join jiu join beginner"
if you really wan smoke den i cnt stop you, you should go tell ur cousin, then thats his business.
i think im starting to separate from you guys...

"..Ah.Yi.."